a new year
i dont know what to expect
the time has been passing me by
but with you it’s spent so well
and i love every minute of it
you were a wonderful surprise
God blessed me with a high tolerance for pain. Guess I was built for heartache.
My heart seems to have taken a trip to Alaska, so excuse me as I go numb.
Well, I guess there truly is a brightside to everything, like having a high tolerance for pain, a sense of optimism, great friends, and a loving family.
But i still have hopes that we’ll find our way together again. And maybe that’s just me trying to be optimistic, but your something wonderful and I’ll always believe in you. If it doesn’t happen, atleast we tried and and loved while we were together. I just hope you find your light soon
I wish I was a color in a field of flowers or a line in a busy city. Just a place where I can be a part of something worthwhile and exist with no worries.
Dear Cookie-Cutter Life,
you’re such a tease, haven’t you heard?
we’ve made it this far,
through Hurt and Happiness.
oh, how they tug and pull at us inside
when Reality likes to hide the measuring cups
So the Good and Bad get out of hand
leaving it to us to guess and make a mess
who ever found the recipe for Perfection?
who hasn’t wished it could be that easy..
if life is lived by the strong hearted, then your aim should be set at gold.
no matter how hard your mind will try to tease you with
its turn around games and second guesses.
Refuse to live in apathy
because passion is what should drive you
and let ambition be the fuel.
This is a statement from a soul
that is suppressed by a mind.
To find balance is the goal
and this can only be reached through feeling and love
backed up by knowledge and understanding
now make a vow,
to live on.
my birthday is around the corner. bout to be an 18 year old. i should be excited or something, but im not really looking forward to it. not sure why. i’m not afraid of growing up. or maybe i am. i just don’t feel like its real. i feel like i’m wating for this big change to slap me in the face but it will never come. i miss my friends. and how we use to just hang out and have fun doing the silliest things. i wish we could have that again. i miss the togetherness. thats what im scared of. the drifting away. but all in all. im thankful to have had such great memories with such wonderful people. my friends are my everything. its time to let that change slap me in the face. there too many things to look forward to than to let thoughts get you down, gotta keep moving.
today i remembered a conversation that occurred months ago.
it was between my friend and i.
i had this idea about different realities.
how maybe if everyone believed in the same thing
it will manifest itself
and become the reality.
it popped in my head again today because i saw the movie inception
and it was so amazing
its so… to put it simply, just fun just trying to wrap your mind around it
about the dreams and the layers
i was thinking how once you get an idea in your mind
it can just go in circles and circles
and become consuming somehow
thats what the movie makes me think of
they never end
its like he got caught within the dreams, the ideas of these dreams
its a truly wonderful thing how christopher nolan, (am not sure if he came up with this idea?)
but the progression of each scene just blew my mind
and how in a way it didn’t even progress
best stuff ever! gotta love mind bogglers c: